At the start of this growing season, I was in my first trimester, working, and dealing with exhaustion and nausea. Our garden needed massive overhaul due to a failed detail of our new vertical beds. The plastic we had used to line the beds was crumbling. Hot, tired, and sick, I decided there was just no extra energy to put into growing plants this year, it was all being used to grow a human. So the garden sat. But it’s amazing how even in a zero effort garden, sometimes things grow.
For the whole summer I have felt sad that I didn’t put effort into our garden this year, but realizing this, the nature of growth, I feel relieved, and satisfied. I’ve been worrying a bit lately as we move into unschooling, that I am not doing enough, teaching enough, so that E will learn, grow, become the best that he can be. But realizing that growth, and learning happen no matter what, I feel a sense of joy, and I’m starting to be able to relax, to just sit back and watch.
While we worked together on the garden today, we chatted. We talked about our observations, and how gardening is like a big science experiment, how this year was a “cleaning out” year, and what we plan to plant next year, based on what we have learned. And there it is… Learning, and growth. Easy. Simple. Relaxed. Authentic. And it doesn’t matter what age we are, there’s always more.